LOVE IS WAR 5
Fandom: German National team
Pairing: Klinsmann/Loew, various
Disclaimer: I still don't know people mentioned in this story and I still hope it isn't true. The plot is still only my fantasy
Author's notes, previous chapters and music here
Timeline for the series is here
Love Is War (5)
Such moments just happen sometimes.
You get tired.
Tired of waiting, of fighting, of trying to be what you are not. Changing your life seems just a bore at some point.
Then it all becomes just a bit harder to fight.
Words, just words. If you have a moment of honesty with yourself, you’ll have to admit that you never really tried to change anything. Ever since Hansi called you with his proposition, you never even tried to escape. You were blackmailed into this relationship, that much is true – not that anyone disputes it. But you gave in so eagerly, so completely…
You were just bored with your life, right? Just starting to feel that living on is such a drag. Tired of meaningless relationships, of girls in your bed seduced by your brand new car rather than you yourself. Suddenly being loved so much that blackmail seemed a logical course and no big deal for poor Hansi – now that was a enticing prospect. That was grand. That was something to relieve boredom. Something to hang on to.
You hang on still, right? And not that it bothers you much.
And not that it hurts you much.
Hurting him – now that’s another matter.
He is a strange man in his own right. He falls in love – and takes without thinking, with clear conscience and no pangs of guilt whatsoever. He’s ruthless in his own way and helpless at the same time. He loves and for him it simply matters more than any other consideration.
Do you? Love, that is. Do you love him and were you ever in love with him anyway?
Yes, Markus. Yes, yes and yes again. Such moments just happen sometime when you can’t help but be honest with yourself. There are moments…
Not that it changes anything.
He’s a hunter, you’re a prey. A victim. Trying to escape.
Thanks be to all the Gods, such moments pass quickly.